winter, bread and my brain

It's difficult to realize at my age how my brain functions which explains all the failures of my life... ' also explains my creativity though. Anyways, obviously I'm AUDHD, that is in the autistic spectrum, but mainly ADHD, actually ADD since no hyperactivity.

My hyperactivity is focusing on one sole thing for days, sometimes weeks, then a sudden total drop of interest for that. Lately, for weeks, I wasn't satisfied with my last batch of bread, so constantly working on improving the recipe, and next day I'd get the machine out early and very concentrated...

Then my brain classified this bread venture as done... I developped two strong recipes, the quest is done, reached... no interest anymore, I fall in a depressed mode as the sky is desperately gray and the temperature stuck around freezing point.

I couldn't live in Belgium, I've been there once in the Winter. Seems like the grey sky is about to fall on you every day, I wouldn't survive; it's a French born Photography teacher in College when I was 24 who made me realize we here in Québec get a very cold and snowy Winter, yes, but it's soooo sunny; really? I said. Then after I went to Europe in the Winter and I got what he meant. Here we have snowstorms, yes, but even then the sky is not grey it's orange, and the day after it's all clear and blue skies for days... freaking freezing but sunny.

So this Winter has been hard; I will publish soon my best bread recipe so far, the Multigrain12.

Then after that I... dunno what I'll do. Watch hockey all Springtime maybe. #GoHabsGo

Another time I will develop on the fact that I now can diagnose as AUDHD symptoms all of my thoughts and moves and decisions just as they happen, am towed by the feeling without my full consent...

Dominique Rock